Real Life!!!

Real life sucks some times and never gets better. But every once in a while it becomes so great that you neve want to let go. You don't let go no matter how many mud puddles and trees you hit. You just go because you don't want to let go of what you have. That is me and has been me sence I met my girl. Even thou we a seperated by a distance and don't get to see each other that often we try and call each day. I have not see her sence nov. I miss her more than anything in the worl and just want a hug. nothing more nothing less. If I got that I would be able to go on for many more months of life. But day by day it gets harder to be this far and every once in a while I think about putting every thing in my car that I need and just head over to her and not comming back. I know how much this would hurt my freinds and family but I come first in my world. I love my friends and family but for me to get my life the way I want it I need her in it more than she is now. I hope that some day soon that can happen one way or anouther it will. I know it....

The Kinkyness Test?

Kinky bastard! Grats! You're 88% kinky!

Well well well, you kinky bastard! Most likely you're into some weird shit, which is always great. Consider mailing the author of this test, and keep up the good work ;)

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 94% on kinkpoints

Link: The Kinkyness Test written by nilnisicruce on Ok Cupid

More Tests....

Ok so I got realy borred today and took tones of online test... thought I would share what i got....

What's your inner Faerie?
You are a faerie of the flame. You tend to lose your temper at the littlest thing, hot-headed. You're a loyal friend to those who can understand your raging moods. You're social though claim not to be. You are no one else but yourself and sometimes you try to hard to be just that. You're a passionate friend, and
would do almost anything for those you care for.

What's your inner Faerie?
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What's your inner Faerie?

The seducer of the night. You are the Faerie of Darkness. You do things your own way. People are toys to you, and you like to mold them to do what you want. You have a lot of friends, or a lot of people who consider you a friend(or a lover). People are drawn to that wild smile of yours, and your promise to allow them to enjoy life. Ignoring the consequences... You live for risks. Even if the risk is breaking someones heart.

What's your inner Faerie?
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What's your inner Faerie?

You are the tree-loving faerie. The Earth Faerie. Nature is your friend, all the little animals are cute and cuddly, even those that bite. You are a strong friend, people have a tendancy to go to you when they are feeling sad. You have a motherly instinct and always want to kiss away the tears.

What's your inner Faerie?
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Which tarot card are you?

I Am Undirected Creative Force. Open, receptive, devoid of pre-conceived notions. Beginnings. A young man holding the white rose of innocence in his left hand and grasping a vagabond's staff and satchel in the other, wanders with his gaze to the heaves, about to step into and abyss. His is the transformative journey of the spirit from innocence through experience into wisdom. his guardian and friend is the white dog symbolizing his own puppylike trust and fiath, for which the world labels him The Fool.
Which tarot card are you?

What kind of angel are you?

You're an elemental angel. an elemental angel is an
angel that is bonded to the elements and nature.

what kind of angel are you?
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What Type of Killer Are You?

You are a Maniac Killer.
It doesn't matter who they are and what they have or haven't done. You still want to kill them. And for a simple reason only; it's fun. Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe you have some sort of mental problems or you are this way because of previous deep scars, only you know. But now you are sadistic and maybe you only like to see a special group of people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are not the most social person in the bunch and people think you are weird. That bothers you somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself with daydreaming about killing them. After all, they have no idea what's coming.

Main weapon: Explosives and torture equpiment
Quote: "Insanity: a perfect rational adjustment to an insane world" - R.D. Lang
Facial expression: Wicked smile


What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
Your a Vampire! Maybe a tad goth...your obsessed with the night. Maybe Killing the living, Sucking the blood off the innocent. You my friend, are the deadliest creature out there.

Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
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What Is Your True Hidden Power?

Your Hidden Power Is Fire
You have a strong and courageou soul. You show no fear when it comes to protecting the ones you love. You know when choosing between right and wrong. You also are quite the rebel.

Gem Stone:Ruby
Eye Color:Red
Hair Color:Red with Blonde streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled back into a pony tail.
Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm and if your low just hold on..cause I will be your safety.....don't leave home.....

What Is Your True Hidden Power? .::Beautiful Anime Pics::.
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What Animal Demon Are You Inside?
Your a lion demon. you are brave and smart!


What Animal Demon Are You Inside?
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What Dragon type would you be?

You are the FIRE DRAGON BABY! You are one of the most common race of dragon a know to the human kind.You love to raise hell(literally) and are pretty much just a badass.You use the power of fire(duhhh) and sometimes spend time w/ others of your own kind.

What Dragon type would you be?
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Warriors name and clan quiz!

Crispfoot-You are tough, In Shadowclan, right now your position is Medican cat.

Warriors name and clan quiz!
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R u a Squirrel????????????????????????????????????

U r a squirrely so u might engoy this sitehttp://www.illwillpress.com/

R u a Squirrel????????????????????????????????????
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Ok that is enough for today.... need to stop taking these things.... damnnnnnnnnn

Life as a Stage Hand!!!

Life is great doing this job, but the hours can suck. Like this coming week I will work for 12 hours or there about and it will be 4 hours on, 2 off, 4 on, 2 off and finally 4 on. Then I look back at some of the greats I have worked for over the years. I have worked Sting, Tom Petty, Alabama, Brooks and Dunn, and many other bands over the 7 or so years would probability will be about 300+ different bands. That does not include the bands I have worked at festivals. I have a lot of life spent in the music industry and fell the call some time to play in it. I can see the draw and one is defiantly the money is one. It can pay well… Well I am done… more later…

The Best Party…

Ok so I went to the best part on Sunday. It was a Private party at Diablo’s and was Studio 54 teamed. It was all night party. I got to dance with my friends all night till my legs could not dance anymore. It was a great time to be had. One of my friends showed up with roller skates on, and he rocked on them. He cut up the dance flour on them. It was great to watch and be a part of. I always love when friends are together and having a blast doing it. I will last a long time till that is broken as a great party.

Well there will be more about the wonders in life that I go thou and might even add some from the past back in.

That’s all for now Folks…

The Senate....

OK so the Republicans and democrats are squaring off for one of the biggest fights in along time in the senate. why might you ask well the republican have a majority of the seet on the judiary board so the people can't get stoped in commity. Then they conplain that the Democrats are un fairly using the filobuster to stop them. All i can think is that in like a few years when the senate switches back to Democratic rule and if they change the rules they will bitch that the democrates are pushing unfair judges though. I find it funny some times how much all of the people in the senate flip flop. I also findit funny on how much they do noot vote for what is right but what there party says is right. If more politcs where done by what there people want or what the person thinks you would rarly see thing go strait down party lines. there would be one or two people that would be on the other side. Because it is not possible to have 100 people in the senate so polized that there is not a few that are in the middle. Our country is not that polized yet.

Ok on a seccond note. I love all the talk about immigrants... Does any one rember history at all.... Think back to all the problem with the Irash or the Chineese or the russians.... and history show us that we are a bunch of stuck up people that forget that we are founded on imagrants and always will be. we can't change history because well it is just that history.....

Well that is enough bitching for right now more to come later... I still got the whole bolton thing to bitch about.... man he is sleeze

An update....

Ok so i relise that it has been for ever sence i have updated my blog. Well lets see what have I been up to. Well still looking for a job but having a blast doing it and getting ready to have the biggest one week party I have had in a long time and I am so looking forward to it. I am also going to get to dance this weekend wich is, well something i am looking forward to. I need to get the energy out and party like ther is no tomarrow... well I will keep you all updated on the party... later all....

An Idea for a very cool Company....

Sitting here stairing off into space looking at Mt Hood, I thought to my self. Why could there not me a new Yankie Workshop type show or web site for kinky people. They want to build things to butthey have a much different idea of what things are for. They might still want to build a dinner table but it has to have a few additions so that is can be used for fun. They also want help making huge toys to play with. You could sell the plans just like in the show. Well that is all the idea I have for now.. Now I have to work it out with some friends and see what could be done for it. If you make something it has a much bigger meaning to you and you will probly use it more....

more to come on this idea later...

Definition for previous post....

free·dom n

1. a state in which somebody is able to act and live as he or she chooses, without being subject to any, or to any undue, restraints and restrictions
2. release or rescue from being physically bound, or from being confined, enslaved, captured, or imprisoned
3. a country’s right to rule itself, without interference from or domination by another country or power
4. the right to speak or act without restriction, interference, or fear
5. the state of being unaffected by, or not subject to, something unpleasant or unwanted
6. the ability to move easily without being limited by something such as tight clothing or lack of space
7. the right to use or occupy a place and treat it as your own
8. citizenship of a town or city, together with special privileges, formally awarded to somebody as an honor
9. openness and friendliness

Encarta® World English Dictionary © 1999

People and our country

What is a revolution?

rev·o·lu·tion n
1. The overthrow of a ruler or political system
2. A dramatic change in ideas or practice
3. One complete circular movement made by something round or cylindrical, for example, a wheel, around a fixed point
4. A complete circle made around something, for example, the orbit made by a planet or satellite around another body
5. A period during which the Earth’s crust changes considerably and major features such as mountain ranges may emerge

Encarta® World English Dictionary © 1999


So by definition 1 and 2, when people speak out about wild idea. They then try and convince people that there ideas are right. People would ask why this important to some lonely hippy in the northwest. Well to put it strait, I value one thing over everything else, Freedom. I value freedom in all way. Which I guess is why I like the saying "Your kink is not my kink, but your kink is OK." This to me shows truly how freedom is out there and something worth fighting for. Be it with words or our army. Why should anyone have the right, to tell another, what is right or wrong. How can one be free if they are told that things are wrong with out be given the choice. If that choice is denied, then they are not free. If you choose to give up some freedoms to make your self safe that is OK. Because you chose to do this and you chose not to be aloud to do that. Another way to look at it is would you ever play a game that you are aloud to change the rules though out the whole game.

That is what it is like with a government, other then we as player, we have no choice but to play. But as a person in a western country we are given a vote and that is suppose to follow the path that we think is right. When is it ever the right path to take two steps backward, instead of one step forward? Why should we do anything that does not at least give us the same freedoms that we had the day before. Why take anything away.

Well I am done for now... more to come later...

Freedoms.....

People in our modern society seem to like to talk about freedoms and acceptances in the world. Then turn around and do just the opposite. They forget that they must first do what they say before they try and do the same to others. This is one thing that drives me nuts to no end. They think that they can put their views on others while talking about freedom. This is one thing I cannot seem to figure out about our society and the way it acts. They try and try to tell us the way to live while reminding us of all our freedoms. Then they turn around and tell us all the things we can’t do and tell us it is because they are unmoral or unjust. Then you turn around and ask them how this is freedom. And they say the same thing and that is why would anyone choose to do things moral and unjust. Well that is the human condition to try and do thing and see like or not. This is that whole trial and error thing that we are told all through childhood to follow. Why is it we are not allowed to try and do thing that harm no one other then our self’s. This is one thing in modern society I cannot figure out. Why we must not let people make mistakes and find out for them self’s why not to do something.

Then you turn to religion that thinks it must dominate society and we must live by their laws. We as a nation are supposed to be a melting pot and a joining of many religions. The same thing happening here has happened in many other countries. This is also one of the main reasons that this country was formed. No one has ever said you have to do what I do or even like it. But you tell us all the time that we must accept it and live with it. Then when something that religion does not like they get a lot of people together and then push their view on people as a whole. Now how is this freedom and how is this not like what they tell kids all the time not to do in school. Just join the click and follow the crowd and ever thing will be ok. No w what message d you think this shows to kids and people growing up. Well to me it shows me one thing and that is as long as you join the biggest group what you want to do will always be ok. If you are not part of the biggest group or crowd then every will be against the law. Well this tirade seems to have gone on long enough. I will do more later…

Been away for a while.....

I have been away for a while and been with out an internet conection so I have been blogging on my laptop and will post them when I get to a conection....

Later all....

Being sick.....

Man life realy sucks when you have a cold. My nose is all stuffed and hurt and i feal like shit. Well it does not take an uber geek to figure that, you feal like shit. So wht does this have to do with a single thing about any thing. Well life has weird ways of showing you sit down and take a break. Stop doing every thing in your life and think. You think about many things and most people can say that after every time they get truely sick. You seem to come out the other side and see the world in a new light......

Life and the New Year!!!

There are many things that I am looking for in the new year. One is for the life I have right now to get so much better. I have also learned that over the last year making sure you have a wounderful family. what ever your family is. I have a couple families I am a part of. and all of them are wounderful in there own way to me. In the new year i want to have beter luck with jobs and find jobs that work for me and the life that I want.

FOR Me:
I want the people in my life close to me to get even closer. I don't want to have to keep saying good bye to my sweets. I never like it and it happens every time we see each other. That is something I would love to figure out a way to change. and I think she would like it too. well enough of the sappy stuff for now.....

I think with the blog over the next year or to I will have finaly told the world who I am kinda scary but hey I have wanted to for a while... hate keeping things from people..... any one that knows me knows this.....

later all

Asshole/Bitch Test

I AM 58% ASSHOLE/BITCH! I am abrasive, some people really hate me, but there may be a group of other tight knit assholes and bitches that I can hang out with and get me. Everybody else? Fuck ‘em. Take the ASSHOLE/BITCH test at Fuali.com

You know you are bored.....

Man you know when you are bored when you use you blog to post all the tests you take on the internet.....

Yah well I lilke to take them and see how close the answer is to who i realy am... Most of the time i get what i think i would get... So now all you must suffer... hehhehehe.... yah well.....


always nice to see some people reading stuff I wrote... kinda make me happy


hippy

Metal Head Test

I AM 58% METAL HEAD! I rock just as hard as the rest of the thrash set, except when no ones looking I like to get down with a little "More than a Feeling." Take the METAL HEAD test at Fuali.com

Grunge Test

I AM 77% GRUNGE! I need to go take a bath, man! And I might wanna toss that shirt of mine in the wash? Any grungier and I would be mistaken for mildew, dude. Take the GRUNGE test at Fuali.com

Goth Test

I AM 62% GOTH! Oh My Goth! You Goth, Boy. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself. Take the GOTH test at Fuali.com

Raver Test

I AM 55% RAVER! I may not be freaky like those Candy Kids, but I do know how to party. I am well connected in the scene, but may be getting a little tired of it. Take the RAVER test at Fuali.com

Hippie test

I AM 55% HIPPIE! I am not a child of the 60’s but my heart is true to the cause, man. I realize that being a hippie is not just bell bottoms and tie-dye. It is also about the drugs and smelling bad, too! Take the HIPPIE test at Fuali.com

Evil Genius

I AM 77% EVIL GENIUS! I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will. Take the EVIL GENIUS test at Fuali.com